Today’s religious world is a world that has a propensity to make people really cautious about what they say, think or do. Christianity is no exception. When I first became a Christian, I found myself learning a lot about the world, my new faith, and those who possessed older faith. It was not uncommon for me to question where, why, and how i should be doing the smallest of things. For example, what music should listen to, what books should I read, what movies can I watch, what words could I say and how to say them. These thoughts where not occasional thoughts. On the contrary, they were thoughts I carried with me on an almost hourly basis in one form or another.
The toll of such demand manifested itself for me at the age of 20 when I rebelled against the church and “came out of the closet” (meaning I proclaimed to be gay to all who would listen). I felt free to do whatever I wanted, how ever I wanted, with whomever I wanted. No longer bound by the chains of precaution and righteous
imagery. For a while, I was happy. However, as the years went by I found that I was at odds with myself. No longer did I feel that freedom I felt when I first “came out”. Instead, I was now lonely, hurting, and aching for meaning in it all. At the age of 28 I returned and decided to go come back to the Lord. Shortly thereafter the Lord started showing me many things that I wish the church would have shown me when i was younger.
This blog is about many of those lessons that the Lord has and is showing me. Because of where I come from, I have a tendency to ask questions that at times may seem sacrilegious. I may even do things that a pious person may frown upon. However, if there is one thing that the Lord was quick in showing me, was that HE is not afraid of my failures and or my falls. He is not afraid of my questions. He is not afraid of my lack of knowledge or of my correctness in theology. However, what He wants from me and has always wanted was and is me. Pure and simply me.
And so, with this blog, I hope to ask questions that some are afraid to ask. I hope to share experiences that maybe some have gone through but are ashamed to profess. It is in these that I have come to see that I am loved no matter what. And if I can share these and bless someone through it, than by all means I shall.
From time to time (being that I am art inclined) I may share a poem or two, since I sometimes express things through poetry. But all in all, my attempt is to impart as much as I can in different mediums in order to reach different people.
I hope that you will consider taking this journey with me. You don’t have to struggle with homosexuality to do so. In fact, I find that a lot of what God has shown me tends to be quite universal to the sexes.
With that said, I’m looking forward to seeing you around 🙂
Juan, (Yup, that’s me down here)